Saturday, August 21, 2004
back from my weekly hangout at WALA, was amazed to see the ICT society peeps there.. as expected, i have not layed a single finger on any of my modules that am suppose to study..hahaha, am so gleeful abt it when my death is drawing near..
y do pple get scared of relationships after eventful incidents happen? y do couple's quarrel all e time? y do pple cheat on partners? y is my mum getting on my nerves all e time and being this full-time bitch that rants all over my neck? lately or should i say eternally, my mum is having pms.. she juz kills my night with all her nagging and whininess of hers.. she's part of e reason y i wanted to leave spore so badly after my Os. she's like e epitome of death..sometimes, i wonder how strong am i to have my patience on her for e past 20 years.. i know, she's my mum who gave birth to me and all blah blah..but she's so possesive to e extent of making my blood boil and to rebel even more.wad e hell..its been 20 yrs, one more year and am outta her leash! couple's quarrel all e time and never get sick of doing it over and over again.. being different from ur other partner has its goods and bads as well as being similar.. forgive and forget is e phrase, but can we ever do that? maybe we will, but it will juz crawl back again when a quarrel start. do we fear abt relationships after being drown before? yes it does, it so happens to one of my bro..i can relate to that, i shall not want to be place in his position. for all is well.. we all have problems that cant be solve in a flash, but we have frds around for comfort and healing.. :)
Posted by jojomano at 2:00:00 AM
Tuesday, August 10, 2004
my weekend dint go well as i expected it to be.. frds surrounding me had problems that made me had sympathy over them.had tolecture this stubborn person whom made me worried much for her as she is making a big mistake or rather a wrong move in herlife that she doesnt know of, its her a good and to make her wake up and be mature abt such stuff.we live in a harsh world.accept that.sorry, but u needed some lecture to get u start thinking abt how sad ur life is.a bike accident causes many sorrows and sadness within e closest frds and families.. i dint know wad to say or rather how to comfort her as its hard to ever handle such pain.a frd of 11years do make a difference in people's lives somehow. another had a nightmare experience where it cldnt be erased frm her memory. a painful experience with fire and i pity her for that hardship and reprimands frm f***ing bosses who dont show any signs of sympathy. i will slap their filthy mouths for saying such awful remarks if i do hear it ever again.i swear. juz saw her juz now working. e moment i saw her, my heart aches for her.damn. if i were her, i wld stay home and not have e courage of showing pplernt marks on my face.to admit, i dont have that kind of guts. another thought running thru my head. do we live in a world full of deceit and pride? do we have to be nice to someone to get something that we want or wished for? do we have ulterior motives when we r nice to another gender? u can never be too nice to someone and never be too cold..so when do we actually know that we have crossed that line of boundary of juz beingfriends or even more? well..someone told me is usually body contact and actions that we display. maybe sometimes we do noteven know that we have gone beyond that line. gheesh.
Posted by jojomano at 1:08:00 AM
